“I just knew that because of what I had done God could never use me again” ~ Jonathan Cooley shares his powerful testimony…
I grew up in a typical Christian household with Christian values and Christian parents that were in ministry. As a preacher’s kid I was at church every time the doors were open. I volunteered for everything and even started a Christian rock band. A couple of years after high school I decided to move to Florida to attend a school to learn about Studio Recording. While in school, I got involved at a local church that eventually turned into me being a full time youth pastor and worship leader. After only four months, I quit school to work at the church.
In the 3 years that I worked in this church I battled with an addiction to pornography. It was truly a battle because I was alone and I could look at anything I wanted to on the Internet.
My youth pastor days were good but I knew there was something missing. It was hard trying to lead a Bible study and was hard telling people about Jesus, because I didn’t actually know Jesus!!! I also met a woman during this time.
However, there was a big problem…she was married, and not only was she married, but she was married to the pastor who was my boss. I couldn’t control the feelings I had for her, and I really didn’t want to. It started out with hanging out, going to movies, calling her, and so on. I kept justifying everything by telling myself that “we were just hanging out as friends.” We ended up growing very close to each other, and before I knew it everything had completely blown up in my face and I got fired. Her husband knew something was going on.
After getting divorced, the woman ended up moving to South Carolina, and I moved to North Carolina. It wasn’t long at all before I moved to South Carolina and we got married. I was still battling with the porn addiction and I didn’t know how to stop. I was also living with a lot of guilt about how my wife and I met, and didn’t want anyone to find out the details. I began working at a church in Seneca, South Carolina and was fired after only 6 months.
I started to believe the life that God could and would NEVER use me again. My brother in-law works for NewSpring Church and continuously invited my wife and me to church. We finally decided to attend a service in 2007 and we loved everything about it. We attended on and off for several years and it seemed like every time we would show up for a service Pastor Perry would say these words, “If your not dead, God’s not done.”
Regardless of what I was hearing Perry say, I just knew that because of what I had done God could never use me again.
I grew up in a church, and actually worked in ministry in a couple of different churches, but on February 5th 2012 I asked Jesus to save me, and my life will never be the same. On this day, Pastor Perry’s wife did a story about how she grew up in church and thought she was a Christian until one day she knew she was not. I felt like I was going to faint because my heart was about to explode, and after asking Jesus to save me I finally knew without a doubt that I was dead but now I am not, and I was blind but now I can see.
The truth is that “If you’re not dead, Gods not done.”
I am now on staff at NewSpring Church and living a dream. I love Jesus and my church. I thank God everyday for NewSpring Church, and that my past cannot define me anymore because of what Jesus did for me on the cross. My life started February 5th 2012. I now have a great marriage, 2 beautiful children, a nice home, and a heavenly Father who loves me so much!
I believe with my whole heart because of everything that I have seen the Lord do in my life that The Best Is Yet To Come!!!